1) Drink more water.
2) Better posture!
3) Work towards making the life I WANT, not the life I think I "should" lead.
4) Write more letters.
5) Dance more.
December 31, 2010
December 26, 2010
Moving (on, forward, away)
Hello blog world. It has been so, so long. I've sort of abandoned this project. It started when I was in a different place in my life, figuratively, literally, emotionally, etc. I will continue to write here once in awhile. I don't harbor any illusions that this blog is going to make me ultra famous in Library Land, and I know (through the power of Google Analytics) that pretty much everyone who reads this thing is a friend or relative of mine. It's useful as a place to push around ideas, and I guess it doesn't matter if it is widely read or read at all.
That said, 2010 is drawing to a close. We have less than a week to go of the worst year ever, and I am just hoping to get through it without any more illnesses, accidents, or deaths. There has been a lot of sadness, pain, disappointment, and despair this year. There has also been a lot of love and support. Unfortunately, at this point all the "good things" were connected to something so terrible that it kind of dims the brightness. For example, a community rich with kindness, support, friendship and love appeared to take care of my dad and our family, but it was connected to my dad's cancer and death. Would trade all those outpourings of love for him. I got a job, but it involves living in a town I don't like, alone, with NO friends and away from my bf. Financial security, yes. Loneliness, anxiety, depression, and paranoia? Would trade the cash for some friends close by and a sense of community. Really.
The one truly good thing, that has no "bad" side attached, is my cat, Winston. In July he came home with me and has since provided more love than I can express. He has become my best friend. Today I came to my apartment, sat in a chair and he curled up in my arms, just like a baby. I feel for him the way I imagine people feel about a child. It was just what I needed.
So, after a lot of thought, I'm moving on. I'm moving forward to a new year. Things will be better, because I will MAKE them better. In 2010, things happened and I reacted. In 2011, I am going to DO things. Even if those decisions aren't the most "rational" (ie, move again! Get a different job, even though I love mine, so that I can have friends again and live someplace where I am happy!) it will be for the best. Life is short, and hard, and often quite brutal, but it also can be beautiful and sweet and fun. I want to laugh more. Part of that is moving these sorts of thoughts into a new space. This will still be updated once and again, but I'm going to put more energy into a new project I'm doing with an amazing friend. Look for casualdecadence.com to be up sometime in 2011.
Thanks for listening. Now go hug someone. I guarantee they need it.
That said, 2010 is drawing to a close. We have less than a week to go of the worst year ever, and I am just hoping to get through it without any more illnesses, accidents, or deaths. There has been a lot of sadness, pain, disappointment, and despair this year. There has also been a lot of love and support. Unfortunately, at this point all the "good things" were connected to something so terrible that it kind of dims the brightness. For example, a community rich with kindness, support, friendship and love appeared to take care of my dad and our family, but it was connected to my dad's cancer and death. Would trade all those outpourings of love for him. I got a job, but it involves living in a town I don't like, alone, with NO friends and away from my bf. Financial security, yes. Loneliness, anxiety, depression, and paranoia? Would trade the cash for some friends close by and a sense of community. Really.
The one truly good thing, that has no "bad" side attached, is my cat, Winston. In July he came home with me and has since provided more love than I can express. He has become my best friend. Today I came to my apartment, sat in a chair and he curled up in my arms, just like a baby. I feel for him the way I imagine people feel about a child. It was just what I needed.
So, after a lot of thought, I'm moving on. I'm moving forward to a new year. Things will be better, because I will MAKE them better. In 2010, things happened and I reacted. In 2011, I am going to DO things. Even if those decisions aren't the most "rational" (ie, move again! Get a different job, even though I love mine, so that I can have friends again and live someplace where I am happy!) it will be for the best. Life is short, and hard, and often quite brutal, but it also can be beautiful and sweet and fun. I want to laugh more. Part of that is moving these sorts of thoughts into a new space. This will still be updated once and again, but I'm going to put more energy into a new project I'm doing with an amazing friend. Look for casualdecadence.com to be up sometime in 2011.
Thanks for listening. Now go hug someone. I guarantee they need it.
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